Sweet baby of mine...

“These tears I’ve cried - I’ve cried 1,000 oceans.
And I would cry a thousand more to sail you home to me.”
~ “1,000 Oceans” by Tori Amos

Nine years ago today a little baby’s heart stopped beating in my womb…and with his death went the many dreams I had for him. I knew him, my tiny angel, so briefly…but even though he was tiny in size, my love for him was a large as the galaxy above. On a black and white screen, I saw my son moving his little arms and legs…I saw and heard the fast flutter of his heart beat and I tasted those special salty tears that mothers only shed upon the first sight of their child. That memory is burned into my mind – but it went too fast in the harsh light of reality. Now he is there and I am here. Even if no one else remembers…I do. Today all those many years ago I lost my boy…Jacob Wm. Riley. I can only dream of the day I will finally hold him in my arms and smell the sweetness of his skin and hair. Yet, I know one day I will. The world might keep turning…it might heal itself and move on…but I will never forget this day. How could I forget the day a piece of my heart died? I will never forget you sweet child. Watch over me until the day we can be together once more.

Mommy loves you…