So why don't I feel better?

For a few weeks now, Brian has been telling me that if/when I leave Allstate that I should let them know just what's going on at our office. I agreed. They should know the truth when they are evaluate whether or not he stays as an agent in March.

So today I sent Davis a big letter - an exit interview, I labeled it - explaining why I felt the agency was doing so poorly. It wasn't an outright attack on him personally, but I didn't hold back when evaluating his effectiveness as a manager and owner. In the end, I concluded that he just wasn't the kind of person who could run his own business. Not everyone is that guy - and Lord knows he is not that guy. I sent a copy of it to 2 Allstate people who are "sort of" his bosses. (Not really - but they are the closest thing that he has to one.)

I honestly felt like I should do it - and had the right to do it - but instead of feeling vindicated by my letter, I actually just felt depressed. Am I really such a door mat that I feel bad for saying what is true (in my view point)? The guy knew I had no other source of income & two-kids and still let me go. Yet - I felt badly.

Maybe it was a stupid thing to do - and I did wait a couple of days to make sure I wasn't doing it out of spite -but I can't take it back now.

This bugs me...I really can't figure out why I'm not happier now. I finally got to say all the things I would have said to him had I not needed my job. It was off my chest...but!

Maybe I am a douche bag after all.