A different path...

Hey everyone ~
Some of you will already know about the news I'm about to share, and to those who don't - I'm sorry I couldn't get the word to you before now. On Saturday, Sept. 9th Brandon was diagnosed with Juvenille Diabetes. It was a complete shock. He had been drinking more and wetting his bed all week long - basically acting out of character for him. Still I wasn't sure if it was stress from the move and start of school, or maybe a kidney infection. Nothing prepared me for what his doctor told me. I actually had to ask the man if he was joking with me. He wasn't...and then I just cried my eyes out. Indeed as of that moment, my life stepped off the path it had been on and started down a new one.

We spent the weekend at Children's Hospital trying to learn all we could about diabetes and how to care for Brandon. It was a lot in a very short amount of time. Brandon handled it all like a champ and only cried once the entire time. I can't believe how brave he is. I'm so proud of him.

Life thus far has been about counting carbs and watching the clock until the next sugar test or insulin shot. It has been a real test. Unfortunately my panic attacks (which had been MIA for over a year now) have returned. Basically I am a wreck, but trying not to act like it. I am back on my Xanax and I have an appointment to see my doctor this Monday. I wish and pray this would go away. I need to focus on Brandon now - not this crap!

Life is going crazy it seems. Along with this diagnosis, my father decided to go ahead and appeal the settlement for the divorce between him and my mom. She is a wreck too! She called me on Tuesday and just went crazy about it. She was crying and it was terrible. My grandmother was also in the hospital the same weekend as Brandon. She had chest pain and we were all worried about a heart attack. It is all happening at once and I just can't deal. I must focus on my son and block the rest out for now.

I'm trying to remain positive. So much worst things could have happened...there are worst diagnosis than diabetes. Yes it is a life altering disease, but it is manageable. He will never "out grow" it, and it will never turn into Type 2 (which you can take pills for) - but he can live a relatively normal life with it. He can even still have sugar treats - just in moderation and at certain times of the day. For all these things I am grateful.

Keep us in your prayers and thoughts. I'll write more when I can.

Dumpster diving in the 'burbs...

As many of you know, I've been a stay at home mom for well over a year now. I have been very proud of the fact that during this whole time, I have not allowed myself to be one of those people who stay home watching television all day. In fact, I rarely have the thing on - I know that must be hard to believe considering the fact that I seem addicted to primetime tv, but I swear it is true! That is until this week...for some reason I have found myself watching really bad morning television. Perhaps this is the ultimate sign that I must get my ass to work again and soon! LOL

Anyhow - holy crap! How annoying is Kelly Ripa on 'Live with REGIS and Kelly'? I don't particularly like or dislike this woman, but really she is no more than a human puppet on this show. She is there to stroke Regis' overly-large ego and laugh at his stupid humor. A monkey could do this job...or a felt-puppet. How can she stand acting so stupid and vapid all day? Maybe it isn't an act... anyhow, I was happy to see David Duchovony on the show this week and to see all the 'Vanity Fair' pictures of Suri Cruise without having to buy the magazine.

Also - I tuned in to watch Rosie O'Donnell's first day on 'The View'. I think it took exactly 4 minutes into the show for Joy (that would be the old redhead who apparently is Regis' wife for those of you who don't know - 'cause I didn't)to get catty with the new hostess. Rosie was joking around that she was growing her hair long so America wouldn't be scared of her short (aka lesbian) haircut. She also said she would be "better now" since she was taking her medicine. Har-dee-har-har. Joy jumped in to snear, "Medicine?! Does your friend Tom Cruise know about this? What does he think of that!" MEOW!! Clearly this nasty remark was unexpected by Rosie because she didn't have a quick witty comeback, instead she motioned to the HUGE basket of flowers at her feet who was from Tom Cruise. Then a few moments later they were talking about some celebrity's kids and Rosie was going on about how cute they were...Joy rolled her eyes and remarked "Oh Lord! I see another adoption coming." DAMN! What is this woman's problem? A guess she really liked Star Jones or something. Freaky ass morning shows.

Being home during the day though allowed me to witness a strange occurance though. We had a big pile of things out on our lawn for bulk trash pick up, and we also had a few nicer things out by the garage door for Volunteers of America. Both were marked clearly. I'm sitting there watching Regis or something, and this guy comes onto my lawn and "steals" all the cords off the bulk trash items. Just the cords! What is up with that? Then these ladies come by a half hour later and they walk up and ask if they can take the old dresser, which is the in the trash pile for a good reason. At least they asked and off it went. They were quickly followed by another man who parked in my driveway and took all the items that were made of steel or metal. If the trash man didn't come soon, I feared I would have called them for nothing. LOL I went to fetch a cup of coffee only to return and notice someone had STOLEN the nice lamps we were donating to charity! I was appalled! It was marked clearly for CHARITY!! Who does that? Who steals from charity? It is amazing what happens in this Hilliard/UA burb.

My long weekend went nicely. We stopped the unpacking madness long enough to venture outside. We took the kids to the Millersport Corn Festival. They rode rides and we all ate way too much corn on the cob. We went boating on Buckeye Lake finally too. It was a refreshing break.

I guess I best get off here...I'll be posting again soon. :o)